tinybitofbitter:

Honestly one reason why I want to go to community college is to take the stress off of me. I don’t want to compete against geniuses. I don’t want to have anyone scold me for not getting into a good college. I don’t want to work my ass off to get into college and then finally go, “Ok so now what?”

I just hate it how everything we do nowadays is to get into college. Where is all the passion? Where is the emotion that we pour into our work and it reflects back on us. There are people out there that can juggle the things they love with their academics/things-that-look-good-on-college. But they’re so stressed.

And I hate it how our parents would yell at us to give up the things we love. Give it up. Study. Go to college. Then do whatever we want.

By then we would have a job.

Friday was so nice. Even though I fucked myself over for not doing my work on Friday, it was so nice to work on an art project.

I wish I was in Europe. After student graduate high school, they take one year off before going to college. And what do they do? They travel. They gather what money they have and travel everywhere on a low budget. Things here are so competitive.

What is life? Is life good grades? Is it college? Or is it going where we like and doing what we love?

I hella want to take a year off to reflect and get my shit straight before going to college. In agreement, I hate this college game we play, during the time when we’re all already so insecure. All this need for rote memorization, to overload on AP courses, to pander to expensive colleges, to obsess over grades and scores—all numbers that supposedly determine how worthful or worthless we are.

There’s no passion in any of this. Just angst then boredom then anxiety then jealousy. It’s poison.